The Fire that soon going to be gone

I felt a weight has been lifted but someone just put it right back but more heavier
I just think and hope that my dad would see the things that i do
hell im not lying
i do wat i do
knw wat just nw he said to me smoke,smoke,smoke that the ony thing you can think of
you are using my money to buy the cig...
I WAS controlling my freaking anger i dont want to hit him...
I HOPE that this would not happen
I HOPE that i find this girl
I HOPE that i would not be crazy, bad, rebels kid
HOPE??? I THINK THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS HOPE
HELL I QUIT SMOKING, DRUGS S S For you man WHY IN THE FREAKING HELL YOU never see it
I Go courses but yu think i hang out with friends to smoke HELL!!!
MAN you not dealing with a man but a man who hide a demon in his mind THE happy go lucky affandi is GONE BUT there is a NEW AFFANDI.. WHICH IS VERY VERY DEADLY....
And thanks to this two girls for understanding me i respect you